Let her shine

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Dear Emma,

It’s my first day without you and I miss you so much it hurts.  I haven’t been able to put my heart back in my chest since you went away yesterday.

Seeing you go was the hardest thing I’ve ever done.  But when Dr. Gallo gave you the shot to relax you and you began to kiss my face, I knew that the pain was fading.  It was as though you were thanking me for taking the pain away.  And though letting you go meant you were taking a part of me with you, I knew it was the right thing to do.

Emma, I hope you know what a light you were in my life.  We lived side-by-side for seventeen years and through everything you embodied what it is to be loyal and courageous.  Through our moves and life changes, your devotion never wavered.  Even when the boys were born and I had a little less patience with you (and everyone) you never lost patience with me.  Even though I was your doggie mommy first, you waited for me to get used to being a human mommy.

You knew I’d come around.

When your pain became too much, you courageously held on until I was brave enough to let you go.  I know it hurt you to get out of your crate in the mornings but you were fueled with your love for me, this I know is true.  Thank you for staying until I was strong enough to let you go.

Emma, Emma Lou, Louie, Fuzzy Fuffer, and Little Whitey: you had so many names.  My little Emma Lou. Oh how I love you so.

You know I have a song for every member of the family.  For you, I have a few.  I guess being my longest, most loving and faithful companion earns you a few made-up jingles.  I know they’re silly, but like I always say, “My life is a musical!”

The day you crossed the over Rainbow Bridge, I sang to you:

This little Lou of mine

I’m going to let her shine.

This little Lou of mine

I’m going to let her shine.

This little Lou of mine

I’m going to let her shine,

Let her shine, let her shine, let her shine!

 

You shine, my sweet girl.  You shine in my heart forever.

I love you.  I miss you.  You will always be a part of me.

Rest in peace, Emma.

Love,

Mom

Music by Odetta, “This Little Light of Mine.”

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12. December 2014 by Shannon
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