It is interesting to see how many words have the word “rage” embedded in them. I feel like one of those words right now. I don’t know how to continue trying to feel normal when I’m jacked-up on hormones and waiting for the end of another failed cycle. These injectable hormones make me feel like someone, something, I’ve never felt before. I feel such intense pressure in my head from the severe headaches they cause and I have this rage inside me because I just want this to fucking work. I keep telling myself:


Don’t get discouraged.

Have an alcoholic beverage.

It can take months to get pregnant, on average.

Don’t disparage.

I wish we had insurance coverage.
The cost of these drugs is outrageous.

At least I have the help of amazing doctors. To not would be a tragedy.


And mostly:


Keep up the courage to continue.


It is all worth it in the end.



21. September 2007 by Shandmin
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